Illusion or plain reality...

yawn...

2012-01-14T08:14:00.002+08:00

3 draggy days ended... gawd what's with all these dreadful feeling.
If not for the drive to sketch throughout the hours, it could be worst.

And why am I awake at this hour when I shd be wrapped up under my duvet?
Partly thanks to Kimi.
Gawd, i am sooo NOT gona recommend watever tix to people in the future.
Headache!
Worst when i had to manage that and crazy workload at the same time.

Another headache project incoming!! Why must wedding preparations be so urghhhhh.

Someone pass me my morning tea!

blessings and signs

2012-01-06T21:09:00.005+08:00

Real busy for the past weeks...and plain lazy probably.

Massive things happened which, if I think again, is totally out of the world.
If Allah is really offering this to us, alhamdulillah.
It's weird. I was being so negative about it in the beginning yet now I'm yearning for it to come true. Hopefully it does.

Currently, the sianness crept in at work. Maybe it's the yearly effect of December. I hate December!
Add with all the urgh cases that's chasing me to my grave (ok that's an exaggeration).
Along with that, I get all these other 'signs' on another issue which I still half believe half not till date.
Seriously... I really need a break. And I really mean like a long vacation.

Thinking of a small library corner in the bedroom. It took me half the day to clean up the mess in the room!
Ok lets roll on the floor for now lol.

A day spend watching their antics. These guys cracks me up.
I want your money your money not you! XD

sick log

2011-12-07T22:23:00.003+08:00

Fever fever fever...bleah i hate fever. The bodyache...it feels like I was just knocked down by a lorry.

I think fever for the whole shock after seeing dong bang :P

So I spend the whole day like a log in the living room.

I realized that nowadays, I need more than 2 days to heal from fever. Immunity system going down.

I have to start stocking on vitamin C supplements.

Pls heal in time for me to chill with za...plssssssss

"reaching for medicated oil*

wishlist complete!

2011-12-05T11:23:00.003+08:00

Last night was just magical. Yearsss of dreaming to see TVXQ in person came true!

Just like what I stated months ago, when I saw B2ST the feeling was so different, it did not feel special. It is said that you only reserve such feelings for your "first love".
It's true.
Dong bang left such deep impact. I thought, after passing through my early teenage years, getting caught in all these emotional turmoils over them was so not me...but I shed tears last night and it totally caught me off guard. An exhilarating night I will never forget.

Thank you god for this great opportunity.Getting to know all those friendly, chatty girls in the queue that went on for nearly half the day! ( I still wonder how I managed to go through that...sore butt!). Initially, I had to admit that I felt out of place. I felt like an elder sister taking care of all these young teens XP
But with time, they really put me at ease. And yes, they definitely made my day when they thought I was mere 19 years old. LOL! Gawd, I love my facial therapist 10x now :D

I just want to chill for the day. Today is anime day! Ciao :)

Jiwang morning~

2011-11-04T14:50:00.006+08:00

I noticed..when I blog, it rains. Oh well love the rain anyways.

Two days to hari raya haji and badakz are attacking our crib.

So have to start on some last minute cleaning of the room while mum prepares the feast on that day. Is this really hari raya haji? It feels like raya puasa seh.

Aunt's here, sharing more new "story". I think she's far more strong now facing all the weird phenomenon. Wonder when the damn thing is gona give up. I hope things does not turn worst like how it happened in the past. Oh Allah, pls free my aunt from all this misery. I beg beg beg.

Bro's in the healing process now after his minor surgery. Most of the time he's dozing off with the effects of medication although this mornining he just mentioned that he wants to get out of the house and do something rather than sleeping. Only thing I could do is to blast on Slam's nostalgic hits for him while we dig in breakfast, which I think does not help as I'm sure it reminds him of his past love life which went downhill >< Sorry bro.

Lately, I went back to my roots...music wise. Slam's old songs brought so much childhood memories although I remember clearly how at that time, I was soooo not into malay songs (Slam is an exception becos they rox!).
Dad's reaction towards the song this morning = hilarious.

Dad: Alamak jiwang ah...tak bole kerja ni.
Me: Abah dengar je lah (laugh*)
Mum: Orang lain yang nyanyi, dia yang sibuk tak boleh pergi kerja.

*And he went on and on with his comments.

p.s: Super hungry! To the kitchen!!

novel frenzy

2011-10-20T00:04:00.003+08:00

Sweet rainy night...

Sweet cos its off day ahead. Today, just like what I normally did in the past during school holidays, I towed a 'plastic bag' of novels. Yeah a huge plastic bag (I'll remind myself to bring a huge proper bag next time). I said to za that we looked like we're towing fishes from the market lol.
We were in this super-reading-frenzy mood.
And there was more range this time that I was so spoilt for choice. I just had to read them all!

Such trips to the library with za reminds us so much of our school days.Probably soon, we'll not have a day together like this so often since she's getting hitched. Haiz.

p.s: Still thinking of what to do tomorrow.

p.p.s: The polar watch rox my jog! ^ ^

p.p.p.s: Timun's coming back in less than a month's time! weeeeeeeeee

Goodbye lil' boy ~

2011-10-12T23:33:00.002+08:00

Little handsome boy passed away 2 days ago.
That charismatic guy whose big smile is the first thing that came in mind when I think of him.

Strangely, I still cannot accept the fact that he has left us.
At one point, I even expected him to appear all fine and say "gotcha!" and we will all vent our anger at him for making such a stupid joke.
Who am I kidding.

Once again we had a reunion...at a funeral.
It opened old scars...scars since Vinnie left.
I miss both of them and memories made it worst.

I hate this helpless feeling.

chill night

2011-10-06T19:51:00.003+08:00

What a lovely night~

Raining, good book, great music, comfy bed, freshly scrubbed and 'tortured' skin thanks to Ivy.
I could only grit my teeth in silence as she pinched on my tummy like a dough. Having her treatment when she's having a relationship problem is ironically a superb time...she gets to vent her frustration and I get the maximum effort from her although it hurts like hell XP
But what the heck...no pain no gain!

Lately, hooked on a novel that weirdly (for real!) reflects my life. I can't help noticing that some of the parts matches things that was currently happening around me.
I could really relate to the character. Spooky seh.

I hope this month goes like a breeze...

Listening to My Girl's OST. God knows where the My Girl VCD disappeared to :(
I want to watch it again!

INFINITE's on a roll lately. I think they can go far :)
Can't help noticing that there's this retro feel in most of their songs. I loike!

niga isseoyaman yogiga paradise ~ ~ ~

missing timun

2011-09-30T16:21:00.003+08:00

Current state:

Sweaty

Giddy (What a jog. This is what you get for the long hiatus.)

Relief (My strained neck is healing! thank youuuu pain killers!)

Intrigued (13 years old psycho's massacre in criminal minds... so out of the world.. shocking)

Past weeks went on pretty slow. With sis in UK and fio in HK, I guess it felt different.
Last night I dreamt of sis giving me that stupid senget facial expression. I recalled laughing and saying to her (like I always do) that if she keeps doing that, it will stay permanent on her face. And then as expected, she did it again.

Yaya! Come back hooooome!! I miss youuuuuuuuuuuu timun!

p.s: This year's december schedule is just pure hell. Faint..wakeup...faint...wakeup...and I stilll cannot make it work! Gah!

pass the tissue

2011-08-27T00:58:00.004+08:00

Ramadhan's coming to an end. A month filled with personal challenges that I know I could have faced them with a far better approach but at times I didn't. I feel this deep regret. So much more to improve on. So much. I've yet to do enough.

My long leave has finally begin after pain stackingly completing some long winded cases. The mood at work went down lately after the shocking news that kitty's leaving soon due to some family issues back at her homeland. Upon knowing about it from herself, my tears just flowed. The more she pacified me, the more I cried. I've been getting very emotional lately. And it's not PMS though. It's just sad that year after year I have to witness people who I grow attached to at work, leave. I know she's going through an emotional turmoil. I hope her troubles are resolved and I wish that she regain back that bright smile that I will surely miss when she's gone.

In this emo state of mind, I am still thinking about the tv drama that I caught earlier. Some dramas are exaggerations of life but at times it really shows the reality that is happening around us. I just don't understand people who treat their parents like trash. And the whole dilemma scene of having to choose between listening to your egoistical husband or your poor mother left me in a state of disbelief. In frustration, I said to my sis "Don't end up like that when you're married!". I sniffed all the way till the end of the show.

Sheesh...I should have watched Chowder at Cartoon Network instead to end my day. Chowder makes my day ^ ^

Chowder has a cloud pet called Kimchi LOL. I want a Shnitzel (grey thingy) pillow!

p.s: Tmr's gona be a busy2 day...polling, making more kueh and remaining spring cleaning before leaving for grandma's hse. Ganbatte!

My day ^ ^

2011-08-08T00:42:00.005+08:00

Turned a year older few minutes ago. Happy birthday to dear me.

A year older. A year nearer to the end of life.

I hope Allah guides me towards a path in being a better person than I am now. Amin.

p.s: I still can't upload Nur Kasih the movie *sniff sniff*

Stuntman in ward

2011-08-05T22:59:00.002+08:00

Morning shift turned to an emergency leave day.
A day spent at the hospital since dad met with a road accident.
I woke up this morning in a panic state of mind although mum seems to be so calm throughout.

And so I went alone to fetch dad, all the way with my heart beating rapidly like I was going do a public presentation in a few secs.

Dad was lying bruised, stitched and bandaged on his hospital bed stained with specks of his blood along side his massive bike box outrageously layed on the bed near his swollen feet (at that point I didn't know whether I should cry in relief or laugh looking at the box). As he recapped the scene, I imagined how dad rolled on the expressway like Sylvester Stallone in one of his action packed films.

Thank you Allah for saving his life. I will be a good girl.

Do you hear me~

2011-08-04T13:08:00.009+08:00

Ramadhan's finally here! Greetings on a cool, rainy afternoon! Weeee love the rain...for today in particular cos it's finally my off day.

It has been kinda dreadful breaking fast like speedy gonzales on my workdesk for the past 3 days (*chomp chomp* stop *talk* stop *chomp chomp*) cos I truly miss the family bonding we have on the dining table huhuhu.

At work, productivity hoo-haas are stressed upon us day after day. Sometimes to the point of being unreasonable. Each time I see such emails, my blood boils. Breathe breathe... *pumping patience level*.

D said "let them be, soon they'll just give up". I wish.

Chilling with Infinite's Be Mine. It's unique. Love the anime-ish feel. Gawd these guys are so young! Do they have to remind me that I'm this old bleah. Serious, they're like my younger sister's age! *basking in self agony*

Enjoy ^ ^

Oh no you don't

2011-07-09T01:05:00.004+08:00

Down with fever...thanks to the company event last night that ended oh so late. After just dozing off for a few minutes at the living room when I got back, it striked. So today was just spent at home, rolling here and there and packing my luggage for the Tioman trip. It's finally here! 24 hrs to go!

Today, sis said jokingly that I was showcasing multiple personalities.
Yeah multiples when I hear rubbish remarks from someone who doesn't even know me well. As what someone said to me, lets not judge a person we don't know.
This person is actually judging me bluntly and since this comes from a stranger, I'll be straight to the point...
I feel humiliated so you can just dump those thoughts aside. Fullstop.

Gawd, some people have the cheek. Such views although at one way sounds so thoughtful actually affect one's morale indirectly. I asked mum the same qns and she gave me an interesting opposite view that (besides made me wanna hug her then and there) made me realise my own value, my own strength. Mum always have ways to make me feel good :)

Oh frustrations aside...I just came across the story that I crafted nearly a year ago. It's a twisted love story that I have yet to complete after an attack of writer's block at the 6th chapter. And then I left it untouched. Hmmm maybe it's time to whip out more ideas for the coming chapters. Maybe more ideas will come during the vacation. Hopefully!

Toodals for now! Tioman here I come ~

Beastly Nite

2011-07-03T20:46:00.006+08:00

Baaaack...
I love working on Sundaaay ~

Last night - B2ST in the house! Fiction in fiction in fiction ~

Reached on the dot and I was surprised that it started on time.
They were smashing good, have interesting personalities and the whole vibe was great, even overcoming the awkwardness I normally see when language barriers exist in some concerts. Niceee.

Weirdly I felt old! XP
Serious. One moment I felt like what the hell am I doing here among all these girls?!..and then I turned my head to my left to see my middle-aged colleague bobbing her head to the dance rhythm as we stood on the wobbly chair hand in hand.

The view was unexpectedly clear cos standing at my height, I was literally looking over everyone's head! Throughout I thanked my legs in silence :)

It didn't feel as special as catching JYJ though.
No offense, It is said that you only reserve such feelings for your "first love" cewah! *stupid grin*

Back to reality. They lamely moved me to another seat in the office. Gahh! I hate it. So far from kitty *sob sob*

p.s: 7 days to slathering of sunscreen and the warm welcome of the crashing waves. Wohoooooooo!

pasar malam night

2011-06-28T14:17:00.005+08:00

Ahhhhh~~~ finally an off day spent quietly at home. I miss rolling about doing nothing at home so sue me.

It's like I can hear this faint chant from the corner of my living room 'Run on meeee~~~Run on meeee~~~'

I'll pounce on the treadmill in a sec.

Last night, after several attacks from unbelievable requests, we slacked till 2am digging on sundaes that we hoped could simmer the remaining frustrations.

I don't get these people out there. They have reputable designations, high salaries and they make hell just to get free gifts. And some just wouldn't back down...they get one gift and they want another after we went through grueling appeal process to get them the first one. Wah super epic greedy case. They think this is pasar malam isit? The ugly truth of consumers. I think their skins are way too thick. Sheesh. Shame on you! Boo!

Off for my run~~~

Move??

2011-06-25T23:07:00.008+08:00

It feels "stagnant" lately.

As sis said, I need something new to spice up my life. And she will come out with all the ideas that makes my eyebrows lift...things I've been shunning for the zillionth time each time we have one of those self-pity talks. Mid crisis or something? Sheeesh. I pointed to sis on why we always talk about that same old things again and again. It's like we find comfort in it's negativity. Actually...kinda, but at the same time, the thoughts drilled in deeper, making me feel more miserable than ever.

Maybe I should start anew with baby steps --> a haircut (lame huh)

then maybe we'll go to other major steps which, seriously speaking, I'm still downright clueless.

Lately, I got this deep urge to run each time i listen to B2ST's 'Back to You'. And this urge weirdly comes even in the midst of my night shifts when I should be thinking more about zzzzzz. I even dream that I'm running and it felt so good. I think my legs just started their protest over the recent treadmill hiatus or something..tsk.

This month seems to flow pretty fast as we went through one living hell at work. Today, I slotted my patience / thick skin level to the highest since I was fasting and I think it went well since there was no spitting out of any level of profanity throughout the day...yeay! *peace sign*

July's coming and I am soooooo looking forward! Weeeeee!

The story I definitely know

2011-06-17T22:10:00.008+08:00

*Searching my way through the cobwebs*

Life has been sooooo busy lately with all the crazy things that has been happening and most of the days were spent at grandma's hse. So anyways, the whole mega story on the exorcism thingy ended like few weeks back. So much efforts were done to find the heal for my aunt.My aunt's back to her own self although there's one more stuck in her. We're still searching for other healers at the moment whilst she stabilizes back to her ownself.

This whole experience showed me the dire importance of family support and God's guidance. Although my aunt is not fully healed, I'm glad that it brought some family members closer. We held on to each other for strength cos the whole experience was draining us physically and mentally. And I saw peeps who I initially thought don't give a damn actually care (clap! clap!) and vice-versa (haiz sadly so true).
A big virtual hug for all the people involved. I really salute you all. Lets pray that all this ends well soon.

Back at work, its back to the war-zone period..there were some moments when I feel like just walking out of the office and just walk and walk and walk for some peace.
Add that with PMS = potential emotional kaboom!

Things that keep me sane at the moment = Music, prayers, novels, thoughts of the upcoming trip to Tioman and the starting of Ramadhan.

Songs that has been twirling round and round in my head = Jay Park's Abandoned, B2ST's Fiction and IU's ballads.
Off the HMV rack! Weeeee!

IU - The Story Only I Didn't Know (Cried watching this huhuhu)

what?

2011-05-02T13:08:00.002+08:00

Busy busy days...

Past weeks been hectic...in a crazy scary way.

Work is crazy enough with the end of the promotion. The usual...when promo just starts and about to end, we'll get all the out of the world request / complaints and interesting excuses from customers *roll eyes*

At home, we came across a massive revelation that my aunt was possessed by a lost spirit. Don't start sniggering till you witness it with your own eyes. It was like watching a mild version of exorcist happening in my own house.

Emotions went wild in the house. 1st week of that was freakout-WTH week. 2nd week was mild-freakout with acceptance week. This week is more to 'I freaking hate that spirit' week. Till today,we've gone to the ustaz house for several times to get that freaking thing out of her body and each time it does, it'll creep back into her. And today (just as I expected cos I just think she seems diff), we found out that it's back again = . =
I don't know what to expect tonight but I just want that thing far from her. Oh for god sake. It's tiring enough to watch.
Just go already.

dreamland here I come~

2011-03-25T22:56:00.004+08:00

Sleepiness at a near maximum level for the whole day. I think I'll be in a deep slumber even if a herd of cattles rampage into the house tonight >.<
Got hooked up with a novel till 3 am and continued on it at 7am. Ah the story is such a delight. By 11am, head out to the job fair with sis, some necessary shopping and collected my passport. Grabbed JYJ's music essay from HMV and I love it to bits! I think out of all the past CDs/ DVDs I've collected, this is the most interesting, useful and loveable item. Sis and I still think that the album's name kinda weird though :P

Back at work, things been on the downside with the increasing calls. Like wasup seh...it's not even the end of the year. Add that with the sickening new system. So drained. Amidst the whole chaos last night, something 'interesting' happened, leaving me fuming with anger till this moment thinking of it. Last I heard, someone got what she deserved. So lets not brood further. I still think that what the person did was the most laughable, stupidest and sickening thing one could do to their own colleague. Karma on the roll!

p.s: Hooked on old time classics from Mohammad Rafi thanks to Cik Pah's recap of bollywood oldies. The songs are so deeply embeded in my head since dad hums them for like zillion times whenever he's in one of his good moods, tapping his knuckles to the rhythm on the edge of the table.

Tonight not-that-old song that popped in my head hee...

Pyaar to hona hi tha - Aajnabee mujhko itna bata

sofa talk

2011-03-22T23:50:00.006+08:00

Current state:

Freaking tired

Got to get this office clothes off

Droopy eyes

Face in need of facial wash

Don't want to talk (faint! felt like I was back to the old crazy $100 promo days and the new system was like tuuut)

Thinking about how I went through the most uncomfortable journey back home an hour ago. Cos the taxi driver was freaking hot..haiiiiiiz

Gawd I need the loo...

Stealer pigs

2011-03-06T19:48:00.002+08:00

Great. My days of slogging on the design for the banner went down the drain.
When I checked the event pics on facebook this morning I couldn't even bring myself to look at it again.
What the crap!! They took my concept and changed the banner design to a total crap.
What the tuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuut! Should have at least informed me right?! It's like there's no respect to all the effort I put in. Who the hell did the whole changes??!
If it's all about the whole pixelated problem, I could have edited the original copy right?! Why must you turn it into this shit!

I want to wring their bloody necks!!! Gave me all the thumbs up and then this??!
Shit la. It's like you robbed my ideas and make it worst. F***ed up. Totally.
Thanks eh. Next time design the whole crap yourself.

dreaming~

2011-02-24T00:54:00.004+08:00

Last night I dreamt...and it was this song. Weirdly I only heard this song and watched this mv once and after weeks, it came back in my head last night in my sleep so vividly with my own matrix wanabe mv (I told you it's the bed position, didn't I).

I think it's the weird hand dance lol...but really, this song rawks. Just when I thought MBLAQ was going down. I still don't get it with the hand thingy though (reminds me of christmas broadway or something)...oh enjoy~

Stay - MBLAQ

Arty day

2011-02-20T12:25:00.003+08:00

*Dusting off spiderwebs*

Just got back from the movies...and of all stories, my two 'lovely' sisters booked 'No Strings Attached' = . =
Now why will I spend my time watching a story about the arguement of casual sex? So lame.
It was not that funny anyways. Shot glares at my sis for not getting the Adam Sanders' new film or Jason Statham's Mechanic.

Anyways, been super busy lately...zup zup and February's nearly ending.
Which means engagement done...it went well! The only downsides were the final preparations and the aftermath...bleah tiring!

And since March's nearing, the department's anniversary's approaching which equals to all the rushings of last minute designs. Gawd, sometimes I feel that I am in the wrong department. It's turning more into a design / marketing department cum kindergaten cum art school. And doesn't mean I can design one thing, you have to dump the rest of the design jobs to me *roll eyes*...last minute somemore. And then there's the group art competition deadline (see, I told you) which got me and kitty on our knees with all the coloured papers today on my off day. As I said to kitty, I sacrificed my day because of Art or more to the fact that I couldn't bear seeing an incomplete job.

Looking forward to the coming months...Michael Buble, JYJ ....and bonus! hehehe.

JYJ's music essay songs sounds great... Fallen Leaves and Nine left me with great first impression. And it's great that the lawsuit's doing well...lets just get all the hoo haas over already... it's tiring even to watch, what more to be involved.

p.s: Nights of realistic dreams and neckache. Can we chg the bed position?

No more

2011-01-24T00:02:00.003+08:00

Half of the day was spent outside a printing shop with a bunch of students..even with a novel, ipod, ipod touch and mobile phone in hand, it was sooo draggy. Thanks eh sis. By the end of the day, I end up staring into the air, filtering through unwanted public display of affections unbashfully showcased while I sat looking like I was waiting for eggs to hatch.

Anyways, the past days were packed with the kelong trip and more engagement preparations.
The kelong trip was so so...actually it was quite boring since I was not into the whole fishing frenzy.
And going to kelong only means one thing...and that's fishing. So go figure.
In the afternoon, the weather was really hot and humid and so we had to retire in our attic rooms which turned into a sauna room. That was the near insanity moment. And that was the moment when we started ramblling with each other about how we now feel more appreciative of our electricity / water supply, fans, air-conditioning system, the fishermen's effort to get fishes (now who said fishing is therapeutic?).

Some of the great things... it was pretty surreal sitting and lying on an open space in the middle of the sea with a great book and some good music, witnessing the sun setting, the clear sky, the brush of fresh breeze on your face, the whole drenching ourselves under the rain scene not caring about how outrageous we looked, the exhilirating moment of riding the small sampan to the kelong (imagine our faces cos we thought that we were taking a big boat lol), playing with my cousin's 5 years old hyperactive daughter who I initially thought that I will never ever get close to (bcos I could not get along with her mother and also due to past experience, I realised that I could not bear some kids). Nana is mischievious (how many times she tried to wrap my face with my scarf or tickle my feet) and cheeky yet when she smiled, all the thoughts of getting angry with her went down the drain. And this kid speaks totally in malay language (cos she's brought up in malaysia) and suddenly I find it refreshing to interact with her cos nowadays children in Singapore will just rattle off in rojak english + malay language like me. I think without her there, the state of boredom could have gone a notch higher. Actually it feels weird that I'm growing attached to a kid. Gee I miss her.

Anyways I think dad got the picture. He knows that I'm gona run if he ever brings up another plan of going to the kelong again :P

Off to chill.

p.s: Tagging bro and tiqah to the library's malay section is a nightmare XP

I don't want to talk

2011-01-08T20:52:00.004+08:00

4 days of crazy shift, now I have to battle another 5 more. Urgh it's sickening...besides getting sicko customers, I don't appreciate being treated like a "ball", passed me here and there and yet the thing is not solved. Ahhhhhh I cannot take this!!!

Ok breathe...breathe. Chant with me. Kelong kelong kelong... 5 days more to kelong trip and I'll dump all those cases!

The thought of sleeping for the whole day or just staring out and breathing the fresh air from my bedroom window (pathetic right? :P bro said im so deprived) seems like the most perfect plan for today. Still I had to shove that aside and spent half the day with bro on our makeshift curtains...super tiring working with mak bonda lol.

On to my novel frenzy...towed more books. Seems like I need forever to complete my readings. I've finally gave up on a book that I've been towing along to and fro from work for the past 3 days. After giving chances upon chances on it, I think the writing style does not suit my taste. It just does not satisfy my attention for better description of emotions and personality of the character. And although the storyline's great, some of the actions done by the character in the story does not make sense. Soooo next.

Ah the day seems so short.

p.s: Praying hard that it'll be a peaceful day tomorrow.

Release it

2010-12-29T22:27:00.003+08:00

The soccer match between M'sia and Indonesia finally ended..weirdly all of us at home were hooked on it.
This soccer ad popped up and of all things, a memory came to mind. Something about "subject" telling me that I looked like subject's stalker during subject's futsal practice. Not that it is of concern now (to make it clear, I won't stoop low to go to the extent of stalking...oh helloooo).
And the whole thing expanded and expanded to the whole story...and all the stupid, angry thoughts come in mind and it just sucks big time.

Gawd, get a grip! Laugh it off...which I actually did all the way to the toilet while dad look on with an expression as though I just turned loony.

Someone said, release all the hatred. Seems that I need some time with this one.

pillow talk

2010-12-21T20:51:00.006+08:00

Mika Nakashima - Glamorous Sky (acoustic)

Sis and I used to be sooo into this...
This version rawks.

p.s: Beat the pillows tonight? But for who?

Sunday news

2010-12-19T22:10:00.002+08:00

The long leave's finally here! I've never felt this good dining out on a Sunday.

The day was spent lazing at bro's room watching him jazz up the engagement decorations.
I won't be rolling about on his bed leisurely if not for the fact that mum has hijacked my laptop for hours to to catch her indonesia drama in youtube *roll eyes*
And amidst that, bro dropped a bomb on me. A revelation that left me in a mix of emotions...it feels weird.
Oh well, lets not brood on this. No damage done.

Anyways, L is in her 5 months and looking great. Gawd I envy her. Godmother to be in 3 months time.. wohoooo!

Scooting off for now. Gotta finish up on that novel by tonight! Ciao.

p.s: Wonder when Shin Hye Sung's gona make a comeback...hmmm

love-hate

2010-12-11T15:52:00.003+08:00

It has been a busy month both at work and home. I hate it when December's approaching. But this time it's like a love hate thingy since sis's engagement and kelong trip's nearing. Wohoooooo!

Preparations are on the roll for the engagement and each time we head out to get her stuff, it rains so heavily. And I really mean heavily as in near losing our umbrellas to the wind.
Engagement? It feels like a wedding! I'm done cracking my head and going under the rain for it.

The past days were filled with Shin Hye Sung's old ballads and more novels.
Novels which made my day yet at times i just shook my head in disbelief cos really... such a character don't exist in reality. Ok if it does...super rare. Gah reading has never been this frustrating and complex. Sheesh.

fresh

2010-11-20T23:38:00.002+08:00

3 metres? 3 feet? I can get wrapped up with the measuring tape today... shhhhhhh...big project hehehe.

Today's weather was just perfect for pure lazing around :)
Rain rain rain... while finishing up on the laundry, I glanced at the kitchen window and realised that I love the moment when the rain just stopped. When the heavy downpour turns into drizzles and the sun creeps out slowly from the dark clouds. That fresh smell. That exact moment. It feels like a fresh new start.
So somehow Leo matches with the sun eh? hehe.

Eveyone's getting their turns with the flu and fever... mine was a few days back... fhew! Stock up on panadols, peeps!

Last nite after work, nibbled pocky and caught UKISS's 'shut up!' mv in MTV... ok I was slow cos I realised that it came out last mth :P
I wonder if their dance were inspired by the silat move? :D
Another song to my jogging-music-playlist!

Lingers

2010-11-17T19:32:00.004+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha~

The day is sadly spent at home accompanined with dramas revolving on the hot topic - 'sacrifice'.

Weirdly, being someone who rarely watches indonesia melodramas, I was hooked on one, 'Emak Ingin Naik Haji' (Mum Wishes to do Haj).
A story that moved me and brought some thoughts in my brain.
The questions lingered.
Did I took for granted the opportunity to step on the holy ground? An opportunity that some people are yearning for, yet never get a chance.
Did I made full use of the time there?
Did I gave my all?
The moments flashed again and again.

I felt that there was more that I could have done.

Now, there is far more that I should do. More to change. More to improve.

I was swept too far. It's time to swim back to shore.

weee

2010-11-09T16:41:00.001+08:00

A new chapter.

Not for me but I'm happy. Hee...

Now get off your butt and start running!

Breathe in, breathe out

2010-11-02T23:13:00.005+08:00

2 shockers in a day... a day can't go as depressing as today.

1 song clinging in my head for days.

B2ST - soom (breathe)

Yes, I so need to breathe in and breathe out.
And I still want to watch The Last Samurai again...gah.

J to the Y to the J

2010-10-18T22:27:00.005+08:00

JYJ showcase in Singapore... told ya that it was gona get super chaotic on the actual day. So much rantings and complaints about the event organizer, Quest... I rather not delve into it.
They came... I saw and heard them. That's all that matters.

When they first strode on stage, sis and I looked at each other with that bewildered look as though we just discovered a mountain of gold. Songs were great and the performances were spectacular. I remembered years ago venting my frustrations over the lack of english subtitles in TVXQ's DVDs and now, they went beyond that...they're singing songs in English! Weeeeee.

Despite all that, something was indeed amiss that night... besides the fact that I was suffering from diarrhea (can u believe it..thank god there was no stomach 'attacks' during the show).
At the end of the day, we sat at the airport for supper (no intentions of stalking but more to the intention of finding an empty toilet fast!) with tired-sullen faces for (1) the dong bang guys looked worn-out and kinda affected by something, (2) it was impressive cum sad seeing the harsh reality that lies behind their stardom and (3) I was also worned out physically with all the visits to the loo. Super detox!

Hopefully, we might be able to see them again in a better platform. Dong bang fight on!

tix ahoy!

2010-10-08T23:02:00.002+08:00

Got my tix! Can I breathe now?

I expected chaos but I think it was well organised. Nice.

I guess the real chaos will be on the actual day ne?

Saw them lugging the branch machine and with the security guys...it felt like I was dropping by the bank.

p.s: Someone's getting super freako tonight.
Cakap broken social scene! Apa lak 2NE1 I don't care I don't care ni? XP

Time stopped

2010-10-06T01:55:00.002+08:00

Two hectic days went by. Thank you JYJ.

First day -> Getting all hectic inside worrying about the next day.

Second day -> Brought my lappy to work. Gawd, for the sake of the online tickets.The time was dragging mercilessly as I counted to the moment to just click the mouse. Situation made worst when the evening meeting was dragged to sooo long...seriously at that time, I felt like wringing someone's neck. Meeting over and I sat in-front of my lappy, stared at the time like an anxious girl waiting to meet her date (kitty tot that I looked like I'm waiting for my exams results). The time came. I clicked. The page loaded..and loaded...aaaand loaded...ooooh soooo sloooow!!! *faint* It was crazy! No wait. I was turning CRAZY! Time was moving and it felt like I was watching someone dying slowly and I couldn't do anything! So plan B -> called sis and in like 'the world is gona end' tone, got her to go to the site. Miraculously, in one go, she's in and zuuuuuup, we got them! Haiz so the drama mama..gugur jugak jantung aku.

It's been such a wait, yearning for dong bang to come all these years and they're finally coming (though sadly only 3 of em). While cleaning my personal stuff cupboard that day, I noticed a note that I pasted in it near 3 years ago. On it were 4 goals I had cheekily wrote with no ideas of commiting...
(1) Staying 'alive' in my job (And so I did, miraculously breathing still)
(2) Enjoying life with my friends (what friends? most of them are enjoying life with their new brand husbands!)
(3) Get fit! Gym! Gym! Gym! (nope. no more but I guess I'm more fit than then and now it's just my trusty treadmill)
(4) Meet the dong bang boys (Seriously, I tot this was so unattainable. So out of the world. I guess now it's gona be half-achieved! weeee).

p.s: After all this, why should I still qns my life. Thank you Allah for the things you gave :)

driving me nuts

2010-10-03T11:10:00.002+08:00

I'm finally doing some effort here. It feels like I have to face O levels again.

So restless!

Oh god, let me go through this smoothly. Amin.

muppet and me

2010-10-02T16:03:00.004+08:00

Sylvester in muppets... the good old days. Ah just brighten up my day :)

p.s: This week was crappy. Scheduling the shift was pure hell. No more please! I give up!

p.p.s: Nik Kershaw's 'Wouldn't It Be Good' repeating in my head. Ironically, I think it's fine staying in my own shoes.

p.p.p.s: Looking forward to team dinner! Woohooooo!

that's it?

2010-09-28T10:40:00.002+08:00

I looked at it, played around with it and I felt nothing.

Soooo...emmm...oook...that's it?

I still don't understand the hoo haas of getting the phone.

For one,I know what it feels...it feels like torturing my eyes by staring at another pc screen for extended time.

p.s: I'm falling head over heels with a 64 yrs old guy... Sylvester Stallone...I rather stare at his face (so what if it sags :P) *melts melts*

knock out

2010-09-26T18:24:00.005+08:00

Two days of mc... knocked out by medication and the classic Rocky series.
I owe kitty BIG time for covering my shift!

Today, instead of 1, we're getting 4 groups of guests. Mum's nasi lemak is on the roll!
Amidst messing about with the pandan leaves with bro at the kitchen, we started doing squats :P
(penalty of 5 squats for every english sentence we blurted). Bro was afraid of losing touch with our mother tongue since we converse too much in English at home. The result...bro owe me 25 squats and he gave up a few mins later.
Terrible.

p.s: tired of nagging.

Killer heels

2010-09-20T03:04:00.002+08:00

Dinner and Dance...would have been more enjoyable if I was not tired after my shift and if wearing heels was not pure hell. I hate heels. If not to avoid from sweeping the road with the tail of my dress, I would have opted for flats anytime. And so, I became super tall..taller than the guys. I could see the heads of the rest of the people who were gathered. The moment I sat, I just took them off and went barefoot (thank you long table cloth).

Highlights were the celebrities invited that includes Hady! Ok seeing him must be common for some but this is just like the 2nd time I see him live. The first time was seeing him afar from the 4th floor at the mall when he was among the Idol finalist...a bit pathetic :P Sooo intrigued with his performance that I ignored my sharkfin soup while the rest went on slurping. Haiyo respect la sikit.

Today's shift was a breeze...hoping for the same tmr.

p.s: Someone's craving for Mcdonalds hotcakes at 3 in the morning o.O

p.p.s: News on JYJ was a shocker. Haiz one after another...I wonder how many more hurdles will the guys face in the future.

ring ring

2010-09-16T22:49:00.002+08:00

Last night was crazy... gawd whats with all the last minute calls. 5 of us dying...out of breath.

This morning woke up to endless sounds of the phone ringing. Mami jarum in action. 'Poking-poking' my mum. Mum reciprocate with her temper and her attempt to defend herself. Can't they just stop with all the hoo haas already. Tired leh hearing the whole thing again and again.
Some people are all grown up but sadly are still acting like a bunch of kids. Grow up!

Afternoon...more ringing amidst mum's annoyance since her korean soap drama is disrupted. Another case of grown-up gone insensitive. Hearing the conversation, I shook my head in dismay and hope that this does NOT happen among my siblings in the future.

Bleah...i hate the sound of the phone.

gosh

2010-09-14T00:35:00.003+08:00

Back to work today and the first thing I wanted to do was to catch up with kitty but she was on mc... fell down = . =
The same respond most of us gave "again?!"
Thank god its not on her head again or her 'screw' is gona get looser :P
Poor kitty... I hope she gets stronger soon.
Next time, I should wrap her in a blanket and stuff her in my jacket's pocket kekeke.
I miss kitty!

I think if I have waited for another 10 min before heading to work today, I would have freaked out totally in the kitchen.
I knew that something like that would happen. It's like I could sense it beforehand. And now, I guess it's clearer to some people that it is true. And what I read came true too. Creepy sia!
I hope she stay strong and maybe we'll manage to help two souls in despair. Hopefully things will go back to normal.

So the drama seh.

Unite them

2010-09-12T17:24:00.004+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya!

3rd day of raya and I just want more sleeping time and more time with my lappy. And no more rendang smell which at the moment is flowing at maximum strength from the kitchen.

Badakz reunion was great! How all of us grew through the times. I'm hoping that the unity last for years to come. Badakz fighting! I want more reunion!!!

Weirdly, the dong bang boys came into my mind today. I realised that all the while I've been trying to escape the reality... that they are not the same anymore. Thus,sadly I've been shuffling away from their songs in my ipod, even the new ones from the three lads that are going strong and the other two that headed on to their solo runs. Talk about being sentimental.
Though the eager-fanatic-teen syndrome is thinning out in me (I think it's the age), I'll hold on to my silent wish and hope for them to reunite. Fight on!

breathe in

2010-09-09T02:44:00.002+08:00

Man... today's a tiring day. By night, the exhaustion was giving me a spliting headache. But at least all the chores are done. Fhew.

And tmr will be more chores at nek's hse.
Starting with the clashes with the makcik-makcik early tmr morning at the market to collect lontong and ketupat. Gawd I hate that.

Can't wait to catch up with the others on raya!

Scooting off to bed. Toodals!

p.s: Someone remembered my birthday today :P But really, I'm cool with it. Chill.
The fact that you're apologetic, makes me feel more appreciated :)

mission accomplished

2010-09-07T12:05:00.002+08:00

Shoe mission was a success!
1 shop, 3 salesgirls, more than 10 pairs of shoes, half an hour later...she finally made a choice.
Each time yaya buys shoes, I get a headache.
Pedalworks people rawks!

I don't feel like working today!! Rather handle the curtains the whole day :P
12 more hours to my looooooong Raya leave! Yipeeeeeeeeeeee!

Shoe! shoo shoo

2010-09-05T23:44:00.001+08:00

Shoe nightmare alert! Shoe nightmare alert!

Pls god, make the mission tmr a success.

here we go again

2010-09-05T00:08:00.002+08:00

At last.. no more flowers to mess with...no more left abandoned on my treadmill.
Just went ahead stuffing them in and tada! a mini botanic garden.
And no comments needed or someone's ending up in the vase itself. I wash hands already hor.

Last night was pure havoc just putting up the lap-lip lights. Messing up with the nails and lights.
Mcm nak rak.

Soooo...
Flowers. check.
Cookies. check.
Lightings. check.
Curtain. tet!
Mopping. tet!
Dusting. tet!
Shopping. tet!
Carpet. tet!

Yawn. I need retail theraphy.

p.s: Now that it happened. It's true. Someone needs to be dumped into the dustbin. Now why am I even bothered...sheesh.

my heeeero...

2010-08-29T03:13:00.003+08:00

I'm in looooooooooooooove...

with John Rambo! :P

Not sure why I was moved to rewatch a movie that was created 2 years before I was even born.
Watching it now, I then fully understand the whole emotion that was riding underneath all the never-ending bullet drilling actions and it was truly heart-wrenching to see a man expressing the psychological turmoils that he went through in the war.

Ok go to sleep already! Tmr's a busy2 day.

p.s: Told myself it was not gona happen. It worked. It damps the misery.

toodals hair

2010-08-24T16:11:00.003+08:00

Long break...it felt duh...nothing. Just filled with cleaning, cleaning and more cleaning.
The hairs the three of us shed in the room is enough to make a set of fake hair.
So today despite 2nd tots, I stepped into the hair salon and snip snip. I can't bear it anymore.

Days of no lappy...charger breakdown and the pc shop still have yet to order their stocks *roll eyes*.
Grrr...thank god its fasting month.

Shit. Yog is ending. Call me pessimistic.

A year older

2010-08-10T23:33:00.002+08:00

Turned a day older a few days back. And when you're in the late 20s, best wishes you get are twisted to a different tune. To the tune of hopefullly I meet a soul mate, get married etc = . = (I knew it).

Frankly, I didn't expect anything on the day but the peeps put up so much effort...mum's pulut kuning, cik ta's roti kirai, that humongous cake and those gifts...thank you all from the bottom of this heart.
Love em!

Oh well, Ramadhan's baaaaaaaaack! And that day of the month comes today of all days. Hopefully, it does not affect the last 10 days of Ramadhan.

Fact of the day : Sis concern for the month = sahur + buka XP

p.s: Started my arabic lessons. So fun! Masaa' al-khayr!

unnecessary

2010-08-04T22:14:00.002+08:00

Early in the morning, just when I was just about to drop these heavy eyelids to sleep after subuh, mum gave the "hot update". Frankly, I don't really care. Even if it takes for the eclipse of the moon for it to happen. Cos when I do care, all the negative thoughts crept into my mind, I felt worst. So the solution, don't care...don't brood. Leave it to god.

Well, yest was ox last day. So sad. No more crap talk with him. Huhuhu.
So his last day... a mouse doll for me and a cat doll for fio, my advanced birthday cake, munching mangoes and sour berries and photo taking. Haiz sad. Wish him the best.

Gawd I'm hungry. Ciao.

p.s: 'Bread,Love and Dreams' is getting pretty interesting.

soon

2010-07-31T20:08:00.001+08:00

August coming!

Ramadhan coming!

Lets rejoice!

mixed up

2010-07-31T01:04:00.002+08:00

It's a wonderful niiiiiiiiiiiite...cos tmr I'm off AGAIN.
Ah, I think without all the hoo haas that's happening in my life lately, I think these are the best weeks...off,off and more offs.

Yesterday, I expected the service workshop to be so urgh..the same old things yada yada... but it turned out well. Partly due to the great bunch of peeps that I I got to know...one who I frankly said looked familiar cos she resembled the korean singer, Lee Hyori with all that cool attitude. The other one treated me like a long lost buddy/ daughter. Two guys who were entertaining us with their comical comments. Plus two other ladies who were plain sweet. But seriously I learnt something valuable (Cheesy sia :P).

Oh well apart from that...life been like a bit of a hollow...like someone punched me hard on the stomach.
What a stupid stupid feeling.

Snap out of it

2010-07-27T22:41:00.003+08:00

Today it just snapped into my brain. This stubborn brain.
I should stop.
I think I've stoop low. I'm worth more than that. So no more stupid moves ...no more.

At one time there was none, now there is. They're excited, I'm NOT.
Weirdly, I have no expectations now. Zilch.
I don't want to think too much about it...can I just treat it like a breeze brushing on my face?

p.s: Something that I saw as cruel before, seems so lame now. Sheesh.

p.p.s: A quote... something about 'growing old' ...is now my 'weapon of destruction' MUAHAHAHA!

p.p.p.s: Too many people in love around! AAAAHHHHHHH! *run run*

take me away

2010-07-27T14:57:00.002+08:00

Harus kau percaya dengan pasti
Dunia tidak kekal abadi
Hanya menguji cekalnya hati
Sebagai khalifah yang sejati...

~Debu-debu dosa - Hijjaz~

The question popped up again. It's killing me.

wake up!

2010-07-21T22:13:00.005+08:00

Two days of no work but draggy-draggy trainings...sooooooo sleepy.
Nearly dozing off in-front of mother hen who said that she will make me stand and sing Majulah Singapura if I sleep. So I stretched (sleepy), did leg exercise (sleepy), stood (still sleepy), catch a glimpse of mr hottie nearby (awake!), hottie walked past (super awake!). Must add :- hottie smiled at me.. (melt melt melt).

me: Saw Mr B? (mr beard, the 2nd new hottie).
kitty: i only see his side. He had specs on!
me: Out of 10
kitty: 6.5

3 hrs later...

kitty: Eh I just saw Mr B. He took off his specs.
me: rate! (typing sneakily while mother hen babble on with loan jargons)
kitty: I still see his side only. He so hardworking.
me: haiyo
kitty: 7! hahahah

Ah it's the season of eye candies at work. Weeeeee.. (control yourself!)

Mum turned 51 yest. When I see that number, I just go woah. And I totally forgot about it but still managed a small celebration and bro lawan tauke with his gift. But I think the birthday card I gave made the most impact kekeke.
And dad was more shocked than mum when we came out with the cake... cos he forgot too XP

Off days ahead...I need to run run run!

Za's engagement nearing. Eventhough things are not the same as in the past, I'll be happy if she is.

Ramadhan! I can't wait!!!!

p.s: Why can't that someone just stop putting tears to my mother's eyes!! Skali aku hyak! baru tahu.

show me out of this

2010-07-18T23:47:00.006+08:00

Current state:

- Sleepy...gawd it's morning shift tmr...I'm so gona doze on my desk.

- Confused... I think the whole chat with bro last nite is getting me more confused than enlightened.
Merepek ah hal2 ni. Can't they just make it clear cut. Nak A, I give u A...nak B, i give u the damn B la. So in the end, did I do the right thing?! or did I just missed a chance of a "lifetime"? (only god knows).
Seriously, I need to get a grip! BE IN CONTROL!

After the hoohaas that left me near dry of any state of emotions...sis thought it was weird that I could still watch a movie in my lappy. It was not weird when it was 'Kill Bill' playing.

- Rabbani's 'Insaf' playing in my head...goosebumps. Weirdly wiping tears with my sleeves at 8 plus am in the office this morning. Floodgates! Open sesame!

- Thinking of Ramadhan. So much to chase for... so much to do.

- Dozing off...toodals

Bourne... born hero

2010-07-14T00:48:00.002+08:00

Moi so outdated. Only now did I caught the Bourne trilogy.
Now, how often do we see a hero who fight so well with a pen and a roll of magazine. Sweet.

Ok now I can sleep. Nites!

Froze

2010-07-08T00:27:00.005+08:00

Genting was greaaaaaaaaaat!
Moment remembered: three of us moving upwards to the peak of the water slide ride...bro screaming at the back compressed by sis and me who were holding on to dear life (there were no damn belts!)...me laughing non-stop that I could nearly pee in my pants. Gawd I think we were the most kecohrable people there thanks to bro :P

I think part of the trip was to relive mum and dad's honeymoon trip near 30 years ago. Sooo we did leave them with plenty of quality time alone hehe.

Ah so its back to reality. This two months will be pretty smooth I guess since its time to clear all those remaining leaves... fhew. Fasting month's just around the corner! Can't wait!

Off today is spent on bradley cooper and more of mr cooper...haiz love his eyes...I can melt in those anytime kekeke.

p.s: Iza's engagement's nearing. Happy for her :)

p.p.s: Still remembered how sis keep repeating this story at home. The song is drilling into my head!
And someone asked me why we never experience such a sweet love like this...sheesh.

Humko Tumse Pyaar Hai...

p.p.s: I think my heart "froze". Fullstop.

Blessed

2010-06-26T22:20:00.004+08:00

It's a blessed day.

Shopping! Finally got my new jeans.
Aaaand I've dropped 2 size! *rubbing eyes*
I think the article I read in the mag is true. Some of us still see ourselves as the same in the mirror even if we've lost weight. I thought that it was ridiculous that the salesperson offered me that size...that was like something I could fit in when I was in sec 4! :P
Let me take a moment to kiss the treadmill.
And I don't think I have 'praying mantis' legs! o.0

Had a satisfying dinner with sis (though anything would have been satisfying at that time when we were at the peak of hungriness)

Aaaand met Mel!
Wow it's been near a year since we last met. A wonderful feeling yet with a weird tinge of sadness...it reminded me of vin and how I have been too absorbed in my own world.
Glad that lil boy is recovering. Hoping to meet the rest soon :)

4 days! 4 days! Weeeeeeeeeee

Soooo what...

2010-06-22T22:25:00.002+08:00

Current state: Hot, sweaty, stomachache, worried (Ivy's gona kill me tmr).

I miss a lot of people...that includes you Qila! Tiqah! Boboi! Mamat! Amira! Ani! dan mereka2 yg sewaktu dengannya.

The past days been full of emotional turmoil. Actually, thinking about it, I think it's so unnecessary. I want to be strong like before. Strong to throw all that aside and just move on with my life. And strong to believe that god gave what's best for me. Strong woman! (ok I will stop before I start with my own rendition of 'I will survive' which I believe will be worst than the self-ceramah I gave aloud last night amidst my sis who were ready to smack me with their pillows).

Yesterday, had a loooooong shopping spree with mum and sis...by the end of the day, I walked out of the boutique with a half contented half dreadful face as though I just dumped my savings in the drain :P
Ah whatever la.

Today, throughout the day, kitty, ox and I were grumbling of the weird queries that came in and the endless sleepiness that seems to engulf us with time. And we had our normal nonsensical arguements about ox milk, cursing the 'demonic' air-conditioning system that was happily freezing us and discussing on ox's move to the design world. Had my first payback-fasting day today and I think it went well. 7 more to go!
And we have a new eye candy in the house! I think he's a genuine eye candy as compared to the past ones :P
Of all people, he had to listen in to me when I was sick with diarrhea few days back...urgh. But at least I had the chance hahahah.

p.s: L said I'm gona be a godmother soon. Jiayo L!

p.p.s: Countdown to Genting! Wooooooooooooooots!

Leceh nyeee

2010-06-16T22:54:00.002+08:00

Every action counts...

Think once twice thrice before you react...

Why must it be so complicated, so leceh, so urghhh...

solution > dun give a damn.

I'll move

2010-06-08T19:49:00.003+08:00

Nice song...

Lee Da Hae's acting rawks...

Brown Eyed Soul - I'll Move

I see nothing

2010-06-08T18:52:00.002+08:00

On the way back home from the bank, i sat in the bus staring blankly at the raindrops on the glasswindow.

I just felt empty.

Gawd is it me or am I having a mid crisis or something.

Sometimes I'll be on a verge of crying over it but by then I'll be giving myself a mental lecture and in turn, I feel like smacking myself for all the unnecessary stupidity.

It's complicated.

Allah, please give this clueless human some strength.

p.s: Rubbing it in eh. I damn saw it and that stupid feeling that I had 7 years ago attempted to crawl in. Bleah. Someone pass me the bucket. I feel like shit.

p.p.s: More? Ox is leaving...haiz.

Dare me

2010-06-03T16:53:00.002+08:00

I did something that I thought I could never ever ever do due to my traditional mindset.
The result - It showed me the perspective of our modern lifestyle but wat the heck, it gained me a friend :)

Anyways few days back, had some hoo haas in the office with C. I thought I saw this hot male security guard at office. A day later, I saw the same guard, talked to him and realise that 'he' was a 'she'! ( imagine me laughing like crazy in the lift)
A day after that, I saw...
two guards...
there were actually two diff person.
So my eyes were right, I did saw a male guard lol. A glance made it hard to differentiate them. Siblings or something.
Conclusion: I'm not kero and there is a hot guard in the house! kekeke

Two days of ' Dari Mata Arisa' and we're hooked anak-beranak.
In one of the episode, the lead actor was upset (over something oh so lame) and was giving the silent treatment.
The woman said upfront "Stop being upset. I do not know how to pacify you"
In my head, gawd I could have said the same thing :P

p.s: Qila's gona go through the op. I wish you luck! Stay strong!

p.p.s: Bro got his SIM admission. Wow my dream really came true...gulp.

Gosh

2010-06-02T20:28:00.003+08:00

Speechless...

I wish the ground will just open up and swallow me.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! *run run*

fork holes

2010-05-25T23:55:00.004+08:00

Morning shift...pure sleepiness... add that with one draggy meeting that was oh so unnecessary.

Throughout the morning, ox the bully kept "stabbing with a fork" till kitty came to the rescue...

5 hrs later...

p.s: We have new neighbours finally and now we have extra "doorbells" since the dogs will just go crazy barking even behind the closed doors when anyone gets back home. Free security alert in place eh.

bio nitesss

2010-05-24T21:38:00.008+08:00

The day started in pure boredom...sis and I whining to get out. So we did and caught Robin Hood and Shrek.
I think Shrek was a bit lacking this time. Maybe I was expecting too much. And so was Robin Hood but it was not regretful watching a war film starring Russell Crowe. He's like one of the most suitable person to play such epic roles.

Been continuing on Muhammad's biography for the past nights and I think it's an impressive book that gave so much details that went through in his life as compared to those general textbooks we relied on in the past. So detailed that I cringe at some parts that happen in the wars he went through. All the more I felt so awed at how brave and dedicated the followers were. I felt small.

June holidays' coming. I'm hoping for some gatherings. Can we have one? plsssssssss.

Wonder when can I hop on another flight.

Unleash your swords

2010-05-19T19:34:00.002+08:00

Been pretty weak for the past few days. The fever spread in the house and I think i spread it in the office!
The headaches went on and off like the light switch and my temperature fluctuates like crazy...shivering in the office like I was strapped in a freezer. Craziest days.

Off days with a head as a heavy as rock leads to movie indulgence at home. I think I just fell for epic war films. And I don't mean wars with guns and bombs but the classic ones with shields and swords. And knowing that they are based on real histories that happened way before we're born, makes it far more interesting. I keep wondering what it's like witnessing such things for real like the ones prophet muhammad went through in his lives. I wonder.

p.s: Caught the animation movie, 'How to train your dragon'...the lead character reminds me of Qila :P

p.p.s: MBLAQ's Y mv... nice song but what's with those pants?! It's like they're not wearing any.

p.p.p.s: Kitty and ox are back. Yay!

Gile kape

2010-05-02T02:34:00.002+08:00

How did I even survived the 4 days of hellish night shift. Really, it was, since I came across a really CRAZY customer (this guy I think really needs either anger management course or a bed at IMH) and I couldn't catch a glimpse of Junsu who finally made it to our small island..*sniff*
It's really unfortunate to hear all the hoo haas about him rushing back to korea earlier today. Hopefully he'll make it here again in the future and it won't hurt if he can tow along the other 4 here too :P

Back to the 'mental customer' mentioned earlier... I think he should opt for the slot at IMH. He said he was not scolding me but was trying to be firm. Firm?! Firm when you actually scream in the phone like a Tarzan? I'm not kidding here. He literally screamed as in 'ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!' like a mad man sia. I had to pull my earpiece away before my eardrums get affected. Gawd...what was that??! It's not like screaming gona get what you want. What's happening to people nowadays. Sheesh.
*Shove work aside* Fio's off for a long holiday break again. Haiz I'm gona be soooo bored for this 2 weeks.

At home, dad towed a humongous tv which served its purpose of magnifying every pores of the actors and it seems that every scenes in the tv looked like some kind of a reality show. I so need to get used to it.

p.s: 2PM's 'without you' performance...Nice.
'Im gona be ok, I'll be ok...' (without crazy customerrrrs...without crazy customerrrrrrs...)

p.p.s: One month and I've reached the '5' boundary. Praying that I'll cross it next week. Go go go!

Ouwwwwww...

2010-04-16T23:33:00.004+08:00

Told you that today's session was gona be painful.
Super painful when Ivy unleash her super strong energy on her 'big pinch' move (I so hate that!) especially when she got to know that I did not heed her advise. Ok ok! I will do it next time!! I PROMISE!

It was a great session since we had non-stop chattings, sharing all our qualms at work though I was in the midst of bearing the pain of literally manhandled by my petite therapist.
I'm so touched by her dedication and her thoughfulness. It was not a mistake heeding sis's recommendation. I feel that the effects are showing at the right pace and I so need new pants!

Anyways they're giving free universal studio tix at work for family day and just when I was getting all excited about it, I realised that I'm damn WORKING on that day =.=
YAAAAAAAAAH this is so unfair!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Retail therapy alert!!!

Go go go!

2010-04-15T23:54:00.002+08:00

Break up! Kimi ni tsugeta yume wa
Katachi wo kaeta wakejanai
Break up! Koko ni aru jibun no
Kara wo umare kawareru

When was the last time I heard this song? Gosh ulu-ulu years.
Still catchy ne..and 'heart, mind and soul' is still an old time fav :)

Today's a total sweat out day with interval training accompanied by the aroma of fried chicken as the others dine on arnolds. Ironically mum offered me some when I was resting, gasping for air (= , = --> the exact look I gave mum).
I think somehow I'm having a total different perspective on fried food lately...it does not give me that strong temptation as in the past and I'm loving mushrooms more than ever. I want to eat a soup filled with diff types of mushroom :P

And I so want to shop!! And more books please!!
Chaaaaaaaaaarge!

toho-day

2010-04-14T18:45:00.003+08:00

A whole day to myself.

Finally got the time to conquer the tv and blast it to catch the whole tohoshinki concert.
It was bittersweet since ironically as stated on the dvd, it was the final concert *sniff* (I make it sound like death tribute sia..ish3x).
So watching sweats trickling down their zoomed face basically took up my whole day :P
I wonder how many calories they burn after each concert.

Which reminds me that I've yet to sweat it out for today. Later then...
Checking out fio's love generation. I'm so outdated XP

Aishiteru

2010-04-12T01:16:00.003+08:00

Tmr's another 'painful' session... And she wants me to sleep through it?!? o.O

p.s: Woooo everyone's in looooooove.

bolly-memories

2010-04-09T22:16:00.006+08:00

Sleepy after the long shopping spree with yaya... err treadmill? I'll leave that for tmr.

And finally got Amr Diab's cd after like how many countless times I delayed my trip to Mustafa.. Weee!

Sis got her jeans, sandals and we had lunch at seoul garden... love the kimchi!...reminds me of the endless stuffing of kimchi at korea... can I say that as a good or bad memory? hmmm...

More window shopping...as I said to yaya, why must all the nice stuff pop up when I'm waiting for my salary. I want that bag!

It has been 2 days of bollywood recaps...sis and I admit that we do that when we're stressed. We'll be in msn (although we're in the same room) and we'll pop each other old hindi video clips to watch.

One B grade bollywood clip that sis showed me recently reminded me so much of our childhood days and I remembered well how we commented on how outrageous the clip is but since the song was so catchy, we kept repeating it again and again :P Seconds after reminding that memory to yaya, I read that the actor committed suicide a few years back O-o...shocking.

It's weird how we could repeatedly watch all those vcds in past without getting tired of them cos I know that it will not work for eng films...err putting aside Bug's Life cos I admit repeating that a lot XP

As sis said, it's like entering into a fantasy world. I think each movie is embedded with diff childhood memory.

Like how Hum Saath Saath Hain reminds me of fever, cos shulu kept repeating the vcd when I was having a major fever one time and how Kuch Kuch Hota Hai reminds me of iza's mcdonald styled hair during secondary school days.

Sadly most of our old collections disappeared as we grew...dad's the major suspect... I think he's setting one bollywood HMV at his workplace.

I so want to watch K3G again hee.

Lets not.

2010-04-05T21:43:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling pathetic again!! Thank you hor yaya.

It seems that I have everything... but I think I have nothing.
When I have this thought, I'll bask in self pity and then it develops to guilt for not being thankful for what I have. Sheesh..

Please.. lets not talk about this.

toho-gone

2010-04-04T00:00:00.003+08:00

Finally home...
typing away with shulu nagging about tmr's plan...
me: Apeeee laaa...go to sleep laaaa!
yaya: chill la chill la!

Fhew aman sikit...she finally dozed off :P

Well what's to chill when you get a shocking news that Tohoshinki's stopping activities.
I knew that this day will come but I didn't expect it to be THIS early...in the midst of all the achievements... what strategy is this??!
And is this an initial step towards the actual disbanding of TVXQ??
Haiz...pure disappointment.

I feel like running.
5km walk two nights back was a killer.
Addicted or what.

RUN! RUN!

2010-04-01T20:34:00.002+08:00

It's a start of a new 'challenge' next week. I'm so into it!
Schedule set...motivation set... and my warm therapist, Ivy send me out with a loud 'ganbatte!'
Hope it works :)

I learnt that running with Bi's voice blasting in my ears pushes me further.
Funny...weird...but it works for me... it was like a personal trainer guiding me at my side throughout the whole regime. How I wish he was there for real...running along with his clingy white sweatshirt...drool drool :P

Off for another round!

Don't talk

2010-03-31T01:15:00.003+08:00

What a coincidence. I had mood swing since yesterday. I dunno what was wrong with me either but I just had no energy to talk and I just felt soooo irritated. Sorry peeps for the silent treatment. More irritated when someone kept talking about her sister and her business. Shush it alr.

And it went a notch higher when bakuteh start ringing again and again to feedback on my response to yesterday's system problem. Don't report u kena, report also kena. Sheesh. Give me a break.

But mood was lightened up when I finally got some chatting time with kitty at work.
Me: Kitty! You're finally back!
Kitty: I was off for only two days =.=
Me: It felt like weeks!

Anyways, za's getting engaged again soon. Wow that was a fast decision. I hope it works for her this time.
So happy for her.

p.s: Attacking sushi tmr!

Love for Allah

2010-03-19T00:05:00.004+08:00

I've always questioned people what does it mean to love someone because of Allah. A qns hard to be explained.
I think the film 'Ketika Cinta Bertasbih' answered my curiosity.

An interesting film that showed great lessons in life and touched me with examples of such dedicated muslims.

And I soooo want to learn Arabic. I find it so hard to grasp that language during my childhood days.
Though reciting them is easy, I have a looong way to go to understand and converse in that language.
In my childhood classes, some ustaz will start conversing in intermediate level throughout the whole lesson leaving us gaping in confusion while some, looking at how blur we all were, will help us to translate the words in our exam papers. Sad to say that the two longest arabic words that I can translate and that still cling to my memory is the word rooster and cat :P

Hmmm should start doing something about it.

Who? me?

2010-03-16T00:06:00.004+08:00

Only You (Winter Sonata ost) - Ryu

Ryu has such a beautiful voice.
Each time I listen to this song, I feel so calm.
I imagine myself standing on a patch of land, surrounded by trees, watching snows dropping slowly from the sky and I just dance and dance...

touchdown

2010-03-13T19:28:00.005+08:00

Baaaaack...

Medan trip went well...sceneries at Lake Toba and Brastagi were simply beautiful...it felt like a dream.
How great it would be if we had such weather here cos I'm perspiring in my room now! D:

The cultural stories shared about the Bataks were pretty interesting...
and as always, the trip was filled with culinary spread of rice, rice and more rice that we attacked Maggi noodles when we reached home. This time...no cute tour guide and driver :P but I think the guide did a great job though there were some shortfalls here and there ... i told you not to have expectations, didn't I.

Upon touchdown at changi airport we were greeted with fans at the arrival hall...
ok ok...not our fans ... Shinee's actually.
The only thing on my mind at that time was the bed at home, when out of the blue, mum said that she wanted to wait too and catch a glimpse = . = (speechless) so we did... (i can't believe that dad agreed to that O-o ...double speechless).
One hour passed...no shining Shinee... only shining lights and more teens ambling here and there probably endlessly guessing where the guys are hiding... dad said " skali they disguised as those pilots"... I think probably the guys are already at their hotel room, sleeping... so we finally left...
Shinee, you left one mother disappointed.

Four days went like a breeze...i wonder when's our next trip.
Back to work tmr... I think the mailbox is gona explode...
*tet tet tet spirit level dropping and dropping*

Horas!

Zzzzzzz

2010-03-08T22:34:00.002+08:00

Everyone's slacking in the room...less than 6 hours to rest before heading off to the airport.

I'm still not able to sleep now though people thought I looked really tired today and I was soooooooo sleepy at work...so sleepy that I requested for someone to slap me...ox was delighted to offer me one = . =
This is what happens when you''re sleeping hours has gone out of control for two years.

Anyways, we had a photoshoot in the office...C became the star for the day. Endless flashes, clickings of the camera which reminded me of scenes in CSI and loud "smile! smile"... more of that, ox could have ended up pummeling someone XP

I think the sleepy spell is kicking in... Sayonara!

Into my heart

2010-03-06T20:30:00.002+08:00

I would run I would fly
If you come into my heart
Then I would stay next to you like river water flows
If you come into my heart

Gah I can listen MBLAQ's rendition to this song again and again.

Ah anyways...

two days!! two days!!

Enthu-enthu dad

2010-03-05T15:38:00.003+08:00

Another late morning. I just couldn't woke up. My eyes opened a few seconds to see sis packing her luggage and then they droop back to dreamland...and like a few mins later, when I'm fully awake, she has completed the whole chore...something that took me hours yesterday O-o

Today, it's yet another day witnessing my parents' enthusiastic antics. The whole shopping plan that dad shared with us got me gawking. All the while I thought he was doing all the shopping for my cousin's upcoming engagement but errr not really...

p.s: Having a peanut fight with yaya. Hmph!

rat - kitty - ox

2010-03-04T02:23:00.002+08:00

Ahhh finally the dreadful weeks are coming to an end... 4 days to holiday!

Today we had 'sudden huge attacks' all the way till night...how dreadful. Kitty and I were counting the hrs and minutes to the end. So now Fio knows how it feels to be slogging the hrs till midnight. On the way back home, the taxi driver asked me work-related qns (slap my forehead)... answered his queries and he laughed and apologised when I quickly told him not to ask anymore cos I don't want to think of work liao...uncle ah spare me hor...my shift's over leh.

Atmosphere's been great since Fio came back. Back to the nonsensical conversations with kitty and ox and more sweets on my table. Snow white thinks i'm more cheerful since she keeps hearing my laughter from across the desk. Trust them to fill my time.

Ah off days ahead! I feel so relieved cos I think it has been pure slogging for last month with the numerous straight 4 days. And through that month too, I grew to become more pissed than ever with some peeps from this other unit. I think for the years working, our units had great bond but now, some peeps there are acting all big. Don't have to talk to me like I'm stupid. Clearly we do not know some things that you know and we need time to digest some of your internal info. We need each other to support work so why must they act so frustrated. If some of their seniors can be so understanding and helpful, why must these peeps show attitude. Talking to them was like trying to understand a difficult customer...I just wanted to end the call. I've lost respect for them.

p.s: Spoke to a celebrity today!

Dose of relief

2010-02-27T19:55:00.002+08:00

I'm a bit relieved from the endless throat ache... dose of antibiotics and lozenges did the job.
Dad was nagging throughout the morning about my health and repeated the story about germs around us...in the mrt la, the phone at work la etc etc...must wash hands la etc etc...yes dad, I hear you.
And mum took it as an excuse to rest and not cook today since I can't swallow oily and spicy food :P

Today towed some novels back home, did some needed shopping and finally had a haircut.

Someone told me to make a step today but I'm just scared.
I admit that in that aspect, I keep giving advises but I never implement it myself before.
Still thinking here.

p.s: Someone's really happy lately huhuhu...and stop denying cos I can read you well like an open book ;)

throat oh throat

2010-02-27T01:36:00.002+08:00

Last fever was on 12th feb (draggy-draggy fever) and though it's gone, my throat is still hurting!! I'm sooo heading to the doc tmr. Last night it hurt so much that I just woke up in a daze and sat on the bed groaning... yaya came to the rescue with her trusty water flask.

With shulu off to Genting, the room's like a internet cafe till the wee morning thanks to 'yours truly' ehem ehem you know who (plus all her midnight snacks in tow) and no one puts the blanket on me when I'm cold in bed huhuhu...
"Nak Shidaaaaaaaaah"

Oh anyways, kak mas engagement went well. She looked lovely, great pink concept and we all had some great time though part of time was spend scrubbing pots and pans at the kitchen. And someone's getting all hype up to plan his own kekeke. Aaaaand an interesting thing happen which left me thinking of how gullible I was. Tsk tsk..destroying the trust was a really bad move.

1 more day to the end of this draggy month... which means Fio's coming back! and our trip to Medan's nearing! YEAY!

Tmr's plan: clinic -> mall -> library...

Work today was pretty peaceful with M's dose of health tips aside Mr S's non-stop grumblings over his cases. Filled my time with mum's islamic history book which left me in awe and regret. A salute to all our islamic heroes.

Selawat and salam to prophet Muhammad s.a.w in conjunction to his birthday :)

rocker me

2010-02-12T01:09:00.003+08:00

Caught the fever...it still feels like I'm holding bricks on my head.

All the time at work, I just wished I could lie on the floor. Felt woozy as though I was high on something as mr protector aka defender said. By night I got the confirmation from others that my voice was transforming to a man's voice and heading towards minah rockers' vocals. If this gets worst, CNY shift is gona be badly affected. So don't you play me out, voice!

Today work went on peacefully, I hope it continues during the holidays (silently hoping that people out there are just too busy stuffing pineapple tarts and ba kwas).
And I had one cheeky customer who asked me out for dinner *shake my head* and please don't call me dear *shivers*

p.s: Weirdly, for two days I craved certain dishes and when I get back home tadaaa! mum has cooked them... maybe I should start craving for something else than food :P

embrace it

2010-02-09T23:59:00.003+08:00

Sis said...it's weird why some people do not appreciate the love showered upon them.
I nodded in silence. How unappreciative.

Anways, the rewang season's here! Wow kak mas getting engaged in a week plus more.Woooots!
Something to look forward to!
How long has it been since we had such gatherings hee.
And I wonder when will it be bro's turn. Soon probably...I know I saw that glint of hope in his eyes (*praying*).

That aside, my day at work started from a sleepy, grumpy mode abruptly tuned to an alert mode since the new peeps came in for listen-in...and of all people, listening to me. But the new peeps are kewl. Plus, the endless poppings with 'Alex the protector' and 'Fio the kitty' over our 'out of the world' topics kept me awake throughout. How can I survive those hours without this two freakos :D Which reminds me that Fio's leaving for her long hong kong trip in 2 days time baaaaaaa! *sniff sniff*

p.s: Poca went for some medical leave and now I gotta to do straight graveyard hrs seh! *faint*

p.p.s: I spoke to someone who had a really beautiful set of teeth today...seriously it was! *ting ting*

p.p.p.s: I think Allah answered one of my prayers...thank you Allah for opening that person's heart :)

Oh february

2010-02-03T23:45:00.004+08:00

February February go away.

February has 28 days but it feels like 28 months. I want March!!!

p.s: Can't get enough of MBLAQ's dorkiness (Didn't expect that from their masculine image). Thanks for the loads of humour. I really need that :)

Push it away

2010-01-30T19:34:00.004+08:00

January's ending! January's ending!

Four straight late nights filled with boredom and cases that tested the inner core of my patience.
Last night's case was a major highlight that made me realise how major patient I've turned. And today's trip to the dentist is a further confirmation of that fact. I could have easily 'bang table' at the receptionist when she told me that I had no appointment fixed for the day. (Then i made appointment with ghost isit?) Not sure how I got the will to stay calm and just say "it's ok" when she apologised to me. Maybe because I know how she feels at the moment.

And mother hen's on my neck lately. Whats up with her? The emails she sent to me was like 'duh' that I couldn't be bothered to even reply. So ya I did some mistakes and it's clear that it's my mistake so whats all the hoo haas in the emails for?! To make me reply "Yes I'm wrong" isit? Whatever la hen... (dah lali tau)

Push push push the frustrations away.

p.s: Dad's birthday... I still dunno what to give him :P

p.p.s: Shinee's in Singapore! Screeeeeeeeeam!!! Bleah...working la deh. Kirim salam eh XP

p.p.p.s: Chill with EXILE... their vocals are worth listening... cuma dah tua je :)

p.p.p.p.s: Love Anita Aruszi's novel - Bunga Syurga. Not because my name is in it :P
Feels like I'm watching a drama with a great twist. With it, time flew so fast...(more novel alert blinking).

yaya~me~shoes

2010-01-25T16:24:00.002+08:00

I can't stop good love, good love, gooood love~~~ G.O.O.D love
(Got such thing as good love and bad love meh? Love is love wat)

Today's slacking day after a tiring shopping spree with yaya yesterday. It was SHOES day! 4 pair of shoes in tow! kekeke.
And we had a pretty interesting encounter while dining. I think he was too earnest on his first day at work. It felt as though we had a personal butler as the waiter was standing near our table, observing us eat ..*toing*... wait..make it a weird butler cos he said "sedapnyeee" (delicious) when we were about to eat (*shake my head)

On the way home, purple line got delayed. The whole platform was packed like a scene during saie at Makkah. Sis was nearly squashed by the door but the thing she was concerned of was her design work in my hand :P

p.s: January's ending!! 1 more month to go! :)

p.p.s: Recently, dad's words always come true... scary.

give me peace

2010-01-22T21:59:00.007+08:00

Gahhhhhhhhhhh I have to work on sunday!!!!

I wish I was invisible when she told me about that.
Thank you buddy for losing your voice :(
Can I say no?
Haizzz... but atleast it's half day... half day of peace pleassssssse.

I feel like I swept a bunch of garbage... all the piling cases settled! fhew!
Fiona had an interesting case that got us gawking O-o ... hai the world is indeed turning upside down.
And someone threatened to write to the press just because we don't provide red packets now (slap my forehead)...speechless, I tell you.

Observation of the day: The young ones can be far more mature and thoughtful than their seniors. Ish3x.

p.s: Don't understand why yaya likes all these B grade movies... skeletonman??? (roll my eyes)

yaya: Asal dia bunuh2 orang ni??
me: Dia nak isi la...dia kan skeleton.
yaya: eh! dia nak isi eh?! (excited)
me: HAHAHAHAHA
yaya: - . -
mak: Dia ni datang dari dunia lain la ni.
yaya: Thanks eh mak - . -
me: HAHAHAHAHA

again

2010-01-20T23:48:00.002+08:00

I'm reminded of that someone again today and it hurts.

pile on

2010-01-20T01:12:00.006+08:00

It' raining...it's pouring...

I'm deadbeat...slurring throughout after 11pm...buay tahan.

Left work with an unsettling heart just by looking at the piles of unsettled cases in my pc. It keeps on piling and piling...

Works adding the stress to my skin! Where did all these bumps came from? Like being bitten by mosquito! Urgh.

What should I do tmr? Hmmm...

p.s: Today's novel shook me with emotion. But really cannot tahan some dialogues...do one even talk in such ways in reality?

p.p.s: Dad is thinking of renting a vacation house. I wish we had one that looks like a kampung house.

ssuuuuuuup

2010-01-17T21:37:00.003+08:00

Life feels gooooooooood!

Sis and I can finally get rid of the lame vodafone and enjoy wireless internet even at the crook of our toilet heeeeeee!! Now I can safely say that our house is not a cave XP
Just when I thought that I had to throw my spoilt laptop, bro's buddy came to the rescue...fhew.

Today, mum came back home with some interesting stories from her visit from somewhere. And bro's 'progressing' finally hee!

And the driveout with za can only be expressed in one word "unforgettable" in both positive and negative manner. And dare I say that I'm not gona drive again unless it's a matter of life and death..fullstop! No further explanations.

p.s: I really can't wait for March.

drained

2010-01-10T20:43:00.002+08:00

Work today was like a quest of survival...fighting againts hundreds of enemies.. reminds me of azumi and her sidekick... endless slashings of the samurai sword but the number of enemies builds up again and again.

With three people down, only two (can you believe it?!) TWO of us handled the whole morning!
Don't understand why people out there are so KEEN in spending their Sunday mornings wih us instead of lazing their weekends away..Sheesh. Go la somewhere... eat roti prata or something...XP

Gah...I feel like it drained my soul.

p.s..can't wait for the drive out with iza...